Fashion

i don't think people understand quite clearly what fashion is about. It is not a focus on who can attain the most expensive designers. Fashion entails an appreciation for aesthetics. An understanding of colors, patterns, and textures and how they compliment each other especially in combination's that go against the grain. Designers are visionaries. No, Fashion is not about attaining the most expensive designers, it is an art form which is just as valid as painting, sculpting, or music.

My World

I am in my own little world and you are welcome to join me but only if you come with positive energy, endless ambition, and a desire to if not change the world, at least change lives.

Change

I am honestly amazed at how quickly I am changing. Every day I am seeing the world as a more beautiful place, I am spending less time focused on other people and more time focusing on myself and what makes me happy. I am so happy with the path I am beginning to find myself on...

Success

And I think that I define success differently than you. The instant I can love everything about myself with no inhibitions, the instant I can find beauty in every tragedy I face, and the instant that the words wealth and value can only be applicable to life experiences and personal relationships, I have succeeded.

Let down

And I've spent years making up excuses for pain you've inflicted
During these years I read myself verses of forgiveness in efforts to let go
And even when I went blind from nights spent with eyes strained on these pages, I rubbed fingertips against braille as if with each stroke the pain of your actions would hurt less

You see I've spent more time trying to forgive you than I have loving you
and I have spent more time loving you than I have loving myself
and through all of this I made promises that it would be worth it because you would be here for me unconditionally...

Yesterday you proved me wrong.

I spent nights with eyes strained, reading verses of forgiveness. Tonight I am done trying to forgive. I am tired and i just want to sleep.

Trust (an unfinished piece)

Trust is you and me standing at the highest point of the highest mountaintop and jumping, both having faith that the other will learn to fly before we hit the ground

SO like acrobatics, I balance on this tight rope which we call our love, sometimes hoping that I do fall because it's not easy enduring your pain for the both of us

And although women were built with wombs to nurture, you were never my child to raise.
I didn't come into this expecting to be a mother, I simply wanted someone to love

The other day someone asked me what the rest of my life looked like...

the other day someone asked me what the rest of my life looked like....

and I looked deep into my future and the scariest part was that I didn't see you in it.

I saw nights spent on bent knees with hands clasped together. Head bowed and eyes squeezed shut as tightly as possible as if the tighter they were squeezed the more meaningful the prayer tumbling out of my lips would be.

But I didn't see you

I never thought I would meet someone who I loved too much to be with.

Wild Thing

“I never saw a wild thing sorry for itself.”

- D.H. Lawrence